Open Letter of a Girl with a Lonely Heart

I'm half hearted but I don't want to question God about his plans. He knows better than me. But a part of me asks for a chance to feel what others are doing. I just want to experience the ways from a novel on how a boy makes effort to a girl. I want to add someone who can take care of me. It's ok if it's not the time yet. But I pray that's it not later than sooner. My patience is tested. My confidence is degraded. Am I that unlucky to have the absence of a man? Why can't they like me with my simplicity and kind heart?  Am i that ugly? If only I am as beautiful as others. My life could have been different. Everything might get better.