Paano mo nalaman?

Minsan na nga lang nagtapang tapangan nagmistula namang kahihiyan. Isang pagkakamaling nauwi sa bukingan.
Itago sa pangalan na hiram. Magpakilalang parang walang alam.
Nais ko lang naman ay aminin ang lihim na pagtingin At maibsan ang dinadala ng damdamin.
Ngunit sa paanong paraan mo nalaman ang tunay na katauhan?
Ako ba'y dapat na magalak na iyo nang alam ang nadarama o magluksa pagkat muli mong ipapamukha na ako ay balewala?
Paano ko malalaman kung di ko sinubukan. Oo, sinubukan ko na. Wala naman akong napala. Minsan pala ang lihim kailangang huwag ipagbigay alam na lang dahil kapag hindi nasuklian ng pagpapahalaga ay parang basura na itinapon sa lupa.

Sentiments

I've always been underrated and underestimated.
My smile has never been appreciated for it is broke.
My eyes never sparkled and looked dull.
My fashion sense never stood out.
My face is not the ones you'll ever turn your heads on.
My body is not to die for.
My hair never fell into place.
I have a lot of insecurities I carry on. I kept on questioning myself why's and how's.
For if beauty is within me I wouldn't try chasing the sun and just sit down to watch the moon appear in twilight.
Sometimes I get tired of living my life. Sometimes I feel sorry for what I feel.
When will come a time that I will be free from all these doubts?
Those achievements I had were never been enough so it drives me to belittle myself.
It's okay to flow sentiments as the rain pours from the sky.
Well, it is better I've tried and took the risk that did nothing. Even I regret it at least I'll have this memory I will never forget . Your memory  and my sentiments.

Fate Trick

I dreamt two of us travelled forth, bounded north. I wish that was true but it's only in my dreams I feel you.
One time we're just an inch apart, still a world separates us. You're so close I can even touch you but I just can't. And you won't. Never.
I wonder if you ever thought of me even just for a second. The answer is probably no. How I pray you'll look at me someday and say hello.
Since then I thought we're destined for each other and played scenariosof us in my head. We were indeed very happy there, there in my imaginations where you never are attracted to another girl.
Thank you thay you still remember and recognize me. For that, I feel blessed instead of feeling useless. This feeling that I can't express will always remain in silence. Cause for sure nobody cares. No question, you'll get irritated.
What do they call this emotion? Is this due to lack of options? I am confused all the way. But one thing will never change, those missed rare oppotunities to talk to you ot be cloe to you will forever be moments that turned to special memories.

Open Letter of a Girl with a Lonely Heart

I'm half hearted but I don't want to question God about his plans. He knows better than me. But a part of me asks for a chance to feel what others are doing. I just want to experience the ways from a novel on how a boy makes effort to a girl. I want to add someone who can take care of me. It's ok if it's not the time yet. But I pray that's it not later than sooner. My patience is tested. My confidence is degraded. Am I that unlucky to have the absence of a man? Why can't they like me with my simplicity and kind heart?  Am i that ugly? If only I am as beautiful as others. My life could have been different. Everything might get better.